Rain outside my window pouring down.

the whole Earth falls to it's knees at the sound of Your beautiful name.

Wow school's starting tomorrow already.
My brother's started school already though.
Melbourne has been pretty okay so far, weather still very wierd.
Went to the beach on saturday and it was pretty fun. (photos on fb)
Wish me luck for school :/

I was thinking of doing dedications.
Soon soon : )
I miss you rachel chua and audrey lim and clara lim and cheryl teowz and anlynn teh and shafia mehboob :(
And everyone back in singapore too :((

9:56 PM

hold me in your arms, never let me go, i wanna spend eternity with You

Omg just arrived in Melbourne yesterday.
Didn't have time to post ystd
Weather in melbourne is super unpredictable,
like, one moment it can be so cold and the wind is very strong and the next moment it's so sunny and hot and the wind stops blowing. LOL.
Yesterday was pretty slack, went for lunch and nap-ed for 5 hours. : P
Went for dinner and yea that's it.
And today is quite hectic, my bro and I just went to meet up with the office lady and we chose our subjects we wanted to take.
IM GONNA LEARN FRENCH OMG OMG COOL HUH HAHAH.
They dont offer chinese there so yea either french or japanese.
wow they offer a lot of subjects, first half of the year gonna do ceramics and the next half gonna do dance :D
I miss dance. :(
Anyway , went to buy school uniform and the uniform rules there are super strict.
Cannot wear ankle socks! D:
And the blazer must be worn at all times...
Yeah, anyways I dont keep my Singapore number anymore but i'll be getting a new aus number later today.
See you! :)

Missing you guys......... :(

8:17 PM

Hold me in your arms, never let me go, I wanna spend eternity with you.

Waa shits man, feeling super stressed now.
So many things to do but so little time.

Why must things turn out this way?
Why must things end up with hatred?
Why?
I feel so helpless and useless and everything.
It sucks being the one in the middle.
I really just feel like running away from everything now
Decisions decisions decisions.
Once you make the wrong decision, everything goes terribly wrong.
And it's too late to regret it.
SHITS THIS.

The hardest phrase of my life is coming soon.
Very soon
So soon, it's so unreal, so unbelievable.
But yes i guess as they all say, the truth hurts.
It does.
If only I have seen this coming.
I would have stayed away and hid myself in a corner and isolated myself
Now it's even harder.
Oh well yes, i guess shit happens.
And we all have to bear with all this shit.

OH GOD, PLEASE GIVE ME THE EMOTIONAL STRENGTH TO PULL THROUGH THIS.
I CAN'T DO THIS ON MY OWN.
I NEED YOU LORD.
IT"S JUST ONE MORE DAY LEFT HERE
LORD I REALLY NEED YOUR HELP NOW.
BUT I KNOW YOU HAVE A PLAN LAID OUT AHEAD FOR ME
I'M TRUSTING YOU I AM.
BUT I JUST NEED YOU.
FROM THE INSIDE OUT LORD MY SOUL CRIES OUT.
Singing you, you bring me life.
You bring me hope.
You're all I need.

5:08 AM

too much of anything can make you sick

feels like i haven't been blogging in ages mannn

have been like super busy to update

so anyways chua, audrey, shafia and teh slept over my house on friday

too bad they had dance or they could have come earlier and slept later and left later.

but yes we had a lot of fun, took lots of photos, as usual heh.

half the photos with me and half of them with rachel

i'll upload them soon!! : )

After they left had level session and played with uno cards!! : )

stacking up uno cards can be very very addicting.

haha, yeah went to Far East after that and shopped .

Bought a very niceeee shirt!!!!! :D so happyyyyy.

and also a very nice t-shirt with charity and cheryl

must wear tgt soon ok!

and right now..... sleeping over cousins house.

haha yes so that's it for now see you!

Reality is just so hard to face.

It's, unbelievable.

Unbelievably painful.

8:35 AM

an unforgettable experience

Had such an awesome and memorable day today
A day i'll never forget.
Spent this special day with the dancers (L)
Went to Holland V, met someone in Frolick hahah
chilled out at NYDC.
Mrs Tye and Lao Shi was so sweet to have bought some lovely gifts.
And so did the dancers, for that wonderful book of photos. :') .
I really loved it.
And so from the bottom of my heart, thank you. (esp rachel and anlynn i know how much effort you guys put into it, thanks a lot... (3 )
It was the bestest gift ever.
Had some speeches and stuffs and later went to Cold Rock.
Wow the ice cream there is like awesome ok, (but you must know what ice cream to mix with what)
And yes took more photos.
See on facebook i'm lazy to post them here heh.
Thanks, for being such awesome friends. : ) .
I (L) you guys .

6:14 AM

please take me away from here.

I've never felt this helpless in my life before.

anyway, on a happier note,
had a great time with dancers today
fitting 6 people in a car was tough hahah
took lots of pictures
check them out on facebook yea have a nice day.

5:43 AM

randomness in the air everywhere

I HATE THE FEELING WHEN YOU REGRET SOMETHING YOU JUST DID!!!! RAWR

Anyway hi :)
Just had a nice day out with besties
did a little shopping? heh

omg i'm super broke i tell you
:( .........
no more money anymore....
how how how how HOW!!!!!!!!
nonono this wont do.
must save save save.
Oh wait i dont have any more money to save :( !

And another day passes by me just like that........

2:32 AM

Because when I think of you, i don't feel so alone

feeling so much better now
thank you for making me feel better
looking at things from a different point of view kind of helps,
and now i really feel so much better now that i know that............... (3
maybe things won't be that bad anymore.
Well i hope so.

I really enjoyed myself on saturday, went dare with my beloveds (L)
It was really fun k, camwhoring and playing like little carefree kids.
how I wish life could be like that for the rest of my life hahah

Anyway im really sorry about today rach and anlynn too i'll make it up to you tmr kkkkkk :)
i promise.
PIZZA HUT! :)

Your love, brings me to my knees again.

12:54 AM

from the inside out, Lord my soul cries out

What are you supposed to do when everything that meant everything, EVERYTHING to you, was going to be taken away from you?
Look at the bright side?
How are we supposed to look at the bright side when the dark side was 95% of it?
Life has its ups and downs.
And just when you experience your great big up, there came this even bigger down.
Why?
Is life supposed to be THIS cruel to you?
Sometimes, the reality is just so tough, so unreal, so... painful
You dont know how to face it.
You dont know what to do.
So you just breakdown every night just even thinking about it.
That pain that hits your heart immediately when people mention it.
Im tired of this

oh god, please help me.
every part of me cries out to you,
I cant do this on my own
Show me your plan for me
Tell me whats going on
why is this happening?!
why must it happen?
Why?

6:59 AM

color splash. Pictures, Images and Photos

At clara's house now
slept over from yesterday to today awesome right hahahahaha
went to mos burger for dinner arcaded.....
had some yummy stingray for supper
stupid forgot to pack shoes so im stuck with my stupid white converse shoes rawr
going to church later so bye

7:08 PM

wrong decisions everyday

the days are passing by so quickly.............

All I need is you, Lord.

2:30 AM

yes i would like to proudly announce that i survived the first week of school. :D
it feels wierd, being in a different class and everything.
I miss 2/3.
Well anyway, we had CCA open house on friday.
It was quite noisy and everything
It was pretty fun at first but later got a bit bored as the sec 1s were kind of tao-ing us .
School's starting tomorrow again..
a week passed by so quickly..........

And yay i finally got my everlast shoes

thanks for cheering me up.
I really do appriciate it.
But that little part of me, can't be helped.

7:57 PM

why?

It's killing me.
It sucks.
It bloody hell hurts.
There's nothing i can do about it.
I hate it.
I really hate it.

God i need you, especially now
I need your help for me to pull through this.
I really really need you, i hope you'll be there for me

It hurts just thinking about it
why?
i try not to think about it.
but it feels more real
as each day passes

4:22 AM

my soul cries out

school's been so boring these few days. :(
all sucky teachers.
life's been like so down lately.......
sigh
i wish i could travel back in time.

sometimes i just feel like giving up and just disappear

5:21 AM

i love you.

school's started.
sec 3s much harder than i thought it'd be
and to make it worse most of our teachers are like .........
sigh.
and all the lessons or at least most of them are so boring ...
sian sec 3 sucks so bad what more sec 4!!!!
Still cant decide between pure history or pure geog.

12:36 AM